Frida Kahlo (1907- 1954) was a Mexican painter/writer, suffered over 30 operations over a lifetime due to a serious bus accident when she was only 18 years old.
The following is a first person presentation that I gave as part of a show Joy Judy Jones and I recorded, which is available to download from my website at www.firewalkerpublications.com.
“I was born Magdalena Carmen Frida Kahlo y Calderon July 6, 1907 in Coyoacan, a suburb of Mexico City, but I always celebrate it on July 7th. I had polio as a child, which allowed me to build great patience with the slow healing processes of the body. That’s when I became fascinated with the human body, not just as a tool to serve me, but as a study in the complexity and wonder that is in its functioning.
It would surprise most people to know I was 15 and entered into the pre-med program at the National Preparatory School before the bus accident. I was 18 (1925) when the accident changed broke my body and my virginity, and changed the course of my life forever.
It has always been a mixture of my mother’s love of Mexico and all her bright colors, her starkness and tenderness of her Catholic/mestiza heritage combined with my father’s love of photography, catching life in images of black and white, his German/Austrian/Hungarian blood contributing to my love of science and medicine.
Life has been the grist for the mill of my creativity, so my paintings reflect it all, sex and sorrow, pain and laughter, nothing escapes my eye or my art.
I fell in love with Diego when I met him in 1922, he was painting a mural for the National Preparatory School where I was enrolled and we were married in 1929 (I had just turned 22).
After the accident I had to withdraw from medical prep school because I was laid up in bed for such a long convalescence. I got so bored, not being able to go anywhere that my father brought me paints and paper, pens and chalk, he opened up my sick room window and said look at the beautiful day out, paint what you see, what you feel, paint everything.
And I did, starting with my crippled right foot, which is my deepest enemy and oldest companion.
I miscarried my only child in July 1932 Diego was out carousing until the early hours, when I needed him he was gone with his whores. I’m glad I’ll never know which one it was or I’d be in jail for murder. Anyways, I was alone that night and was having such back pains, I couldn’t think of what to do, so I prayed and prayed, but around midnight I started bleeding out, so much blood. I knew, but I didn’t want to look. I knew I had lost our precious child, but there was nothing I could do. I went to sleep feeling as cold as if I was outside without any clothes on, I thought it would be the last thing I felt, I thought my life was flowing out of me then. But the next morning Diego found me and got the doctor. I lived. That’s all.
My first solo exhibition was at the Julien Levy Gallery in New York in 1938. Although I will always be grateful to El Norte, it will always hurt me a little that I had to leave the country of my birth in order to attain any recognition for my art.
The betrayal that hurt the most was when Diego slept with my sister Cristina, after we took her into our house because her husband was beating her. I sometimes wish I had never taken her in, but I should have known better. It wasn’t really her fault. Diego could never resist the attraction of a woman he hadn’t yet bedded. Finally I couldn’t take his infidelities and in 1934 we got separated/divorced, but later, when the pain of our separation far outweighed the pain of his wandering eye, I took him back and in 1940 we remarried. It was fate that I would love him until the moment I died. I can’t be sorry for that.”
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Background Sources Cited:
General biographical information from: http://www.fridakahlo.com/bio.shtml
The Diary of Frida Kahlo-An Intimate Self Portrait. Introduction by Carlos Fuentes. Chronology, pg 288.Abrams, New York, NY.